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I’ve been dreading our vacation for a little while now. I think the main reason behind that is because it’s not happening how I thought it would. Allow me to explain; the trip itself is coming along nicely. The hotels are paid for, as well as the train rides, tours, and random adventures. The plane tickets were paid for in February and we have all our luggage we need. Why dread the thing I’ve been waiting for all year then? I’m nowhere near where I thought I’d be physically. I had plans that I would be at least 2 or 3 sizes smaller and that I’d be confident in who I am.

Now please don’t think that because I am larger I am not confident, I know my body (I’ve had it for 29 years) and I love all that it can do. I am proud of myself for who I am. What makes me sad is seeing where I’ve been and knowing I could be in a similar place now if I had worked harder.

This was me in 2005. I know I don’t still have those pants, and even if I did I know they wouldn’t fit. I think what makes me sad is that this is sort of how I still see myself, and then when I see what I currently look like it’s heart-breaking.

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I remember that I wasn’t afraid to sit in an airline seat during this time, or to share a seat with friends. Now all I can think of is whether or not I’ll have to have an extender, and if I’ll even be able to fit in the seat. This is merely an update of to where my brain is and what I really need to focus on during the next month. I’m going to do my best to avoid fast food and cut back on soda for the next few months. Soon I’ll add more about what I’m taking and hopefully that will get me excited once again!

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New Update for Beauty Gabbers: November 8th, 2015, March 16th 2016

So if you can see from above I’ve been meaning to write this a while ago. Anyway, I’ve been lacking on posting a whole bunch simply because my skin has been miserable. Like really bad to the point I was having elementary school flashbacks where I constantly had my oily bangs on my forehead and that caused my forehead to have all these little bumps. It was terrible! I have some photos I tried to take of them before I tried fixing them, but I really hated them and what’s worse is that I had no clue why they began!

After a while (and lots of googling) I found out they were clogged pores. I knew they weren’t acne because I never have had an issue with it, plus all the acne products I tried did nothing. So I got myself some products with salicylic acid and micro-scrubs and went to town. It took months, I mean months to get it back to where it used to be and it still can get bad when I ignore my skin for too long since that oily skin still builds up and gets all gross. I’ve included some of the products that I’ve used to get it back to decent skin, and I’ll let you know what I still use and what is kind of my second string backup items. And no, I don’t use these every day, just as their results are needed, like if I use the Olay scrub, I won’t use Vasanti.

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The Details

  • Get my Face Clean:
    • Olay Fresh Effects Deep Pore Clean & Exfoliating Scrub
    • derma|e Microdermabrasion Scrub (I freaking love it)
    • Vasanti BrighentUp! Lovely scrub
    • Murad Clarifying Cleanser (HOLY GRAIL)
  • Makeup Remover:
    • Any Makeup removing clothes (pictured ones are the one I have currently)
    • Simple Micellar Water (I like Garnier way better now)
    • Acure Facial cleansing Gel (not pictured)
  • Misc.:
    • Olay Toner for Oily Skin
    • Face Masks (not pictured)

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